Monday, November 24, 2008

Boogie Man

He'll drain your dreams
Replace with screams
And endless streams
Of tears and fear

He'll stalk the dark
Growl quietly to mark
His victims while
He moves in on his prey

Pray, they say
To calm their nerves
To catch their breaths
And lose what's left
Of truth and life itself...

***~~

Ten thousand people scream for their lives
But who in all deserve to survive?

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Attempting a romance?

Dearest Marianne,

It breaks my heart to see you with another man holding you in his arms, and so I’ve decided that I should no longer be able to see you, in order for me to live a happy life.

I love you always,
Christopher

Marianne crumpled the letter in her tightly clenched fist. She felt burning anger stirring within her. “Damn you, Christopher,” she whispered to herself as tears rolled down her face.

***I can't do it....it's too hard!!! I know the content could be good, but writing it just grosses me out for some reason. The romance genre is not one I dislike, but putting the words down gives me a sickeing feeling. Maybe if I werent' so childish it could work, but I guess it's because I'm immature and I can't understand the deeper meaning of...'love' if that IS what it's really all about...

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Dancing in the Free Summer Breeze

Dancing in the free
In the summer
In the breeze
Dancing in the free summer breeze

Carousels in the sky
Turning a frown into a smile
Dancing in the summer breeze

[Chorus:]
All the world is heaven tonight
And I only have one wish for you
Don’t you dare be the one to say
Don’t you dare be the one

I want you to hold me
I want you to love me
I want you to take me into your heart
And be the one to make you smile

Dancing in the dark
In the winter
Under stars
Dancing in the dark winter stars

Clouds falling from clouds
Turning a frown into a smile
Dancing in the dark winter stars

[Chorus x2]


***Look! I attempted at writing a song :D

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

The Way She Is

***I figure I should start on my character sketches?

Riley hated her hair. She always complained about how short it was whenever she wanted to tie it up high, and strands would fall out on her forehead. Sometimes, it would be too long for her and she’d threaten to cut it shorter than it already was. Her preferences always differed to whatever mood she had.

She also hated her nails, that were so short, but so bothersome. Whenever they had a chance to grow even a little longer, she’d bring her hand to her face and bite her nails off. Riley could never leave them alone like that. She couldn’t leave anything alone. Everything had to be tampered with according to her or else nothing would change. And in her opinion, that was a bad thing.

She always thought that by doing even a small good deed, she was making a change in the world. I was much younger than her, so being her little sister, of course I couldn’t understand. Still, I don’t think I could ever understand. Riley was such a complex person, so unique, but indifferent to being different. I envied her.

When my sister went out with her friends, I’d wondered where they’d gone because Riley would be tired as hell, but she’d still have the biggest smile on her face. Sometimes, she’d come home carrying a picket sign with her and claim that she was protesting for the good of the Earth. She was such a hippie.

Even her clothes defined her sometimes. She’d usually wear soft-colored shirts or blouses with flowers on them or weird designs that belonged in the 60’s or 70’s or whatever years those were. Riley would also put flowers on her hair or make necklaces out of them. She was so weird, but so happy and full of ambition to change the world for the better.

It wasn’t like she was trying to be a real hippie. It was just how she was. She cared about a lot of things and a lot of people and didn’t care if they didn’t feel the same way towards her. No matter what, she’d stand strongly for what she believed in. That’s how we were raised by our parents after all, but it mostly only got to her instead of me as well.

Ever since I could remember, Riley would be the one to ask questions about these things that mattered the most. “Why does this happen?” or “Can’t anyone do anything?” When our mother or father shook their heads to her questions, she would be determined to be the one that would be able to turn things around and make a difference.

Riley was so bright and so carefree. During one of her nights out, I was permitted to come along with her and her friends. When we came upon a green spacious park, I saw baby trees that were yet to be planted and Riley was looking at me as she held in laughter. “We’re going to be the ones planting them,” she said, playfully, with wonder and excitement in her eyes.

I only thought that she acted like that at home, but that day, I realized it was just how she was.

Poor Riley, though in all her glory of self-righteousness, would be so devastated whenever she found out some of the horrible truths of the world. For example, last night, while we were watching television after dinner, a newscast came on reporting that many animals had died due to people taking tests on them with unsafe chemicals. In response to this, she declared a protest outside of their lab facility for tomorrow night.

I don’t know how she could be so strong. For most people, finding out something as upsetting as this would usually cause them to plunge into deep depression. But Riley was one of the most determined people I knew.

Although, she wasn’t always like this every second of every minute of her life. She’d have her weak moments as well, but she would never let anyone see her at those times. Riley was afraid that if she showed any negative emotions or actions around a large number of people, it would set off a bad effect on society. That was how she saw it.

On television or the radio, we’d see things like old western movies. In those movies, the cowboys would judge upon whoever came into the bar and start a fight with them until they scheduled a duel at sunset. The other characters wouldn’t do anything really, except maybe one or two would take sides and assist or they’d all hide.

Riley’s opinions of movies such as these were of distaste. I could tell immediately that it wasn’t to her liking anyways. Anything that included guns and fighting was off her list. She watched mostly the news. Anything that would give her something to do so she could protest or write letters to the government or even pick up some garbage at the local parks.

It was always a mystery to me of why or how the garbage could end up at such a place like a park. My sister would look at me and reply, “Some people don’t understand that when they litter or leave garbage behind, they’re making filth in their own home.”

Riley was often frustrated with the others around her who didn’t have time to consider the Earth that they lived in. She didn’t mind that they weren’t like her, an environmentalist who just wants to help out with anything or even anyone that needs it, but she couldn’t stand when they’d be the complete opposite of her. Someone who purposely tried to ruin the world they lived in.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Torture Device

Tremble with fear master
You are not all that powerful...

I watched as he lay still on the bed. He was awake, I knew, but I couldn't help but feel worried that he was slowly slipping away. All the things he did in the past didn't matter now. Everything he'd done was only of instict to survive. Who could blame him?

"Nghh..." He groaned in pain as he tried to move into a more comfortable position on his side. I quickly rushed over to help him, but when I reached an arm over, he slapped it away, refusing my help. So stupid.

I glared at him, retreating a few steps back from the bed. Why'd he have to be like this? I wanted to help him, but he just couldn't understand a simple gesture like that.

After much struggle, he finally settled down, looking at me with cold, empty eyes and I stared back. We were communicating with silence, but I didn't know what he was trying to tell me. It was as if he were already dead.

I cringed, shuddering and trying to force the tears back. Was he doing this on purpose? How cruel. He was always so cruel, even now. Why?

I sighed, swallowing my feelings down and feeling the lump in my throat. This was just too upsetting to think about. Everything about him was just too much! If he kept this up...if he kept refusing to accept and acknowledge my presence here the way it is, then what would happen to him? No one else would care for him like I would.

And I was the only one he didn't want help from. The feeling of knowing this made my insides hurt, and my eyes itched with tears that have long waited to be cried. I rubbed my eyes, miserably, turning away so he couldn't see. I tried hard, but the tears just kept rolling down, one by one, and in no time, I was shaking and sobbing.

It was a miserable, horrible feeling, but a nice one as well. To finally let it all out. But then again, to let it all out where he could see. I'll never forgive myself for this, I thought, shaking my head as I gasped for air.

I felt a hand, gently patting my head. I sniffed my tears aside, looking up through my blurred eyes and saw his figure in front of me. Why does he make me feel like this? So much more inferior to him than I already am. And yet, I can't bring myself to hate him. I just can't.

He brushed my hair away from my face and just kept looking at me. I felt his eyes tearing into my soul as if he were the one being who could determine whether I could ever be worthy enough to be alive. I bit my lip, glaring down and refusing to meet his eyes. Because I'm not as weak as he thinks.

"But you are," he said, matter of factly. My heart stopped cold. He could even see what was so clearly written on my face. Was I really that blatantly obvious???

I won't smile again
I won't ever be loved
You can't do this to me
You can hear what I say so please talk to me
You never talk to me...
-Ra


***I'm bored...and I don't have writer's block...I just don't have much to write about =/

Monday, November 3, 2008

Blasphemy?

Isn't it blasphemy to compare Jesus Christ or God to a normal human being..?

Trying at Details

He turned, his eyes wide with the look of death on his face. Not a sound was made, but he knew that his enemies were there, watching him. He could feel a set of eyes focused on only him, the feeling itching inside where it hurt the most.

Suddenly, something hissed from the other direction; a deserted hallway that stretched for miles it seemed. He held in his breath, gathering his thoughts altogether as he tried to calm the beating of his heart.

The blood-stained walls and ceiling blurred as they danced around, shuffling the doors and staircases. Was this just an illusion or was it real? Nothing could be differentiated from reality to dreams anymore or vice-versa.

A sort of music wafted in the air. Someone had started playing the organ. The eerie echoes of the faint tune being played gave a haunting atmosphere throughout the building. Then a female voice had started singing in a high opera voice.



"Who do you think you are...?" he asked viciously, his teeth just barely touching the surface of her neck. "Don't you know I'll kill you?"

"I know you are evil...and that no matter what, you won't ever be able to live normally like humans. And I know...that I must kill you." Her voice had a sort of defiance. She didn't know what she was doing anymore. She'd never dealt with this kind of animal before. A vampire!

He laughed, hysterically, the loud, booming noise that could be heard from miles away to make even the wolves

Unfinished Poem...so no title yet

Dark solace of my heart
Come take me now
Darkness from within
From the child I once knew
Forever gone from temples
The heavens scream out
A theif in the night
Has stolen the treasure
A theif in the light
Has stolen my heart
Breaking to spectrums of colours
Beneath the ocean


***work in progress